If you want to get to know me it will take more than a glance or a guess. My history, my motivation, my spirit is more unique than anyone that I have ever met.
That is not bad or good, I am just a little more complex to understand than most I have met.
My history is not a long one, while I am writing this, I am still in my 20’s. But I have learned a lifetime of lessons in a relatively short time frame and grown up a lot faster than my peers. Most of my friends are older than I am. I feel like I understand them better than people my age. See, while most kids were worried about what they were going to wear or what movies they wanted to see, at 15 years old, I was fighting with my parents not to emancipate me as a minor. They did not want me in the house and this is the legal way to kick someone out who is under 18. I was put in-between my parents arguments and problems like a counselor should be. A lot of very heavy stuff was put in front of me when most kids at that age were able to frolic and play. Yes, my parents should have gotten professional help and yes, I deserved to be a kid, But sometimes there is a reason why things are the way they are for with the purpose of the bigger picture.
I can’t always see or understand the bigger picture but here’s where faith comes in. As you can probably guess, when a child has to grow up fast, it’s usually because they are not allowed to have their innocence or that their innocence is taken from them. No, there is really no justification for why this would be ok to have to live through or why anyone deserves this. But I went through times where I almost took my life because of the pain and the hurt that I had to reflect on.
And something throughout the process in the back of my mind made me feel like there was “more” to come and that I had to stick around. I had faith that I should wait, faith that there was a larger purpose for my life, even if I did not see or understand it at the time.
The more open I have been with sharing my story, the more I realize my issues which stunted me emotionally and socially are not only mine. I realize as a society, 1/3 people can relate to my story, but social stigma alienates us to think we’re messed up or that we are less-than so we hide and instead of being our big bold beautiful selves. We stay co-dependent on someone else’s illness because we know nothing different. We become withdrawn socially and emotionally for the most part. Lots of us live through a version of PTSD or post traumatic stress that leaves us unable to see how our dissociation from emotions makes us unrelatable and unreachable by most people who want to love us.
You know as if “you only know what you know”, you don’t know what other people see when they look at you. You can only see what’s in front of you, you cannot see you from other people’s eyes. They see things like your pain, mistrust, controlling tendency, and more.
I know people who go their entire lives without being able to see what everyone else sees (their pain) and they end up bipolar, depressed, hateful, staying completely withdrawn from others and that is the saddest existence. There is so much that I can do to be able to help so many others see all of this and be able to grow away from it.
Starting with focusing on yourself or self love is usually the first step. Getting physically away from abuse or from those who condone this behavior. For me, it took for me to get physically away and feel financially independent, emotionally independent, physically independent, and spiritually independent. I could finally own all of my thoughts, needs, opinions, wants, etc.
My why is to create independence through wealth from real estate. I want to give others the opportunity to start over and create into existence whatever they believe they deserve (which is everything).
I stand for an abuse free community where toxic codependency will be identified and stopped.
If you want to learn more about our master plan to create independence in my community email us at firstname.lastname@example.org